Real discipline

Hebrews 5:11-14 and then 6
5:11 On this topic we have much to say and it is difficult to explain, since you have become sluggish in hearing. 5:12 For though you should in fact be teachers by this time, you need someone to teach you the beginning elements of God’s utterances. You have gone back to needing milk, not solid food. 5:13 For everyone who lives on milk is inexperienced in the message of righteousness, because he is an infant. 5:14 But solid food is for the mature, whose perceptions are trained by practice to discern both good and evil.
6:1 Therefore we must progress beyond the elementary instructions about Christ and move on to maturity, not laying this foundation again: repentance from dead works and faith in God, 6:2 teaching about baptisms, laying on of hands, resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment. 6:3 And this is what we intend to do, if God permits. 6:4 For it is impossible in the case of those who have once been enlightened, tasted the heavenly gift, become partakers of the Holy Spirit, 6:5 tasted the good word of God and the miracles of the coming age, 6:6 and then have committed apostasy, to renew them again to repentance, since they are crucifying the Son of God for themselves all over again and holding him up to contempt. 6:7 For the ground that has soaked up the rain that frequently falls on it and yields useful vegetation for those who tend it receives a blessing from God. 6:8 But if it produces thorns and thistles, it is useless and about to be cursed; its fate is to be burned. 6:9 But in your case, dear friends, even though we speak like this, we are convinced of better things relating to salvation. 6:10 For God is not unjust so as to forget your work and the love you have demonstrated for his name, in having served and continuing to serve the saints. 6:11 But we passionately want each of you to demonstrate the same eagerness for the fulfillment of your hope until the end, 6:12 so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and perseverance inherit the promises.

Shouldn't this be what we are all about?
Lately i have been thinking how much we tend to back slide and put on ignorance when we just don't want to change. The interesting thing about that is how unbiblical that is.
But even worst how unreal that is. To me its sick that i just act dumb even ignorant to God's will or to me duty and life.
Have you ever felt like you just don't want to do something? Like i don't want to go to church this morning? I know i have found myself there many times but the interesting thing is how unreal that is.-If i am a Christian shouldn't i want to be in fellowship all that i can be? Why do i allow my flesh to stop me?
I thought i would just pose this quick question as i go through finals week here at school: How real is your walk, because if its real what kind of teachings are you taking in, what kind of fruit are you producing, what kind of progression have you made?